Once Upon A Time... Sevda

                                           

And Im having one of those moments, those moments when i feel like i'm not me, in a very schizophrenic way.

This song, these lines, this very note....I could swear I heard them before

I could swear I cried over them once.

I could swear I lost someone, and this very song was playing in some dark coffee shop on the corner of the main street.

I could swear it was sunset, traffic was crazy, I was lost somewhere with my thoughts racing to catch my messy mind.

I could swear I had a fight with that guy I never knew, and he wanted me to stay, but i , i, i, i  just had to leave..

I could swear a loved one left and i spent a nightmarish evening.

I could swear the high note was meant for that tear i shed that same second.

I could swear I've  just finished the registration process and boarded on the plane, and flew somewhere snowy. I asked the flight attendant to bring me a dark hot coffee for I was feeling a bit chilly despite the warmth  of the plane

old school : the piece of paper  and the pen...

I could swear i packed unusually light: some woolen sweaters and some of my favorite books..

I could swear no one waited for me at the airport that day because no one was left for me in this life, I took a cab and headed somewhere I didn't know.

I could swear Husnu Senlendirici was playing Sevda somewhere, he was playing it for me...

I could swear I left the world that day, for a better world.

I could swear that Once Upon A Time, Sevda was Me....

Be Schizophrenic ...

xoxo Marwa Me Blind Optimistic...