Something “bad” happened to me a few days ago, when i was on my way to work. I’m sorry but I cant say what it was, not now, not here… and suddenly this question popped up from my disturbed mind .
if one thinks of it , you’ll find that almost all the bad things happen only to those society calls “good girls” , but who/what are good girls? I am sure that everyone has her/his own definition/ verision of what a good girl is, but everyone would probably agree on the fact that good girls are most of all obedient either to the society , elders, or parents, they respect almost every rule made by the ones who set the tradtions, the customs, the 3aib* , the 7aram* and of course those who do not deserve their repect and they do it with a lot of heart (sarcasm)! the good girls are very careful all the time, they never take risks, they always want to preserve a certain image, thinking that all that would do them only good, they would think that all this work would pay off at some point , that they will be liked and thus will be successful, the worst thing of all is that they see la vie in Rose ! which is WRONG WRONG WRONG ! good girls get hit by life very often, they get mistreated , disrespected, humiliated and even …. .
this definition of what good girls are may look to you, dear reader, as a quite disturbing definition , it does make the good girls look passive and dependant and with no personalitty what so ever! but Good Girls are also very intelligent gals who know what to do, what they want, without ever crossing the lines (lines that they drew themselves) nor upset their parents who are the dearest to their hearts, a good girl knows how to choose the persons she wants to be with (friends and such). BUT, a good girl would never know how to go against odds, or how to do “what’s needed” to get where they want. A good girl wouldn’t know how to go with the flow or follow the mainstream and just accept the very weird suggestions she gets all along her “good” path, it does not mean that she is too innocent nor a saint, but it rather means that she is someone of ethics and principals, things that others obvuously never heard of.
but the question is WHY DO BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD GIRLS ?
I have been asking myself this question for a few years now , and I haven’t found the answer, but I didnt had the slightest idea of changing teams or be a bit flexible when the situation needs me to. Im just going the hard way, that was/is/will be always Me, the Blind Optimistic and the good girl who fights til the end, even if I get really tired of this fighting to be Me, fighting against a society that does not respect who you are, no matter how respectful and ethical you are, a society that sets very bizarre lines, and erase the lines that should have been there ( and talking about society depresses me, back to the initial issue) and that’s how bad things happen to those good girls , simply because they don’t know how nor want to bend their ethics and the principals they live for/by to adjust to a wicked twisted slutty society. Knowing that a bad path is so much easier to take than a good path -of course “good” is a controversial word and has a zillion definition but here I am talking about the broader meaning of what “good” is- because simply a bad deed is always easier to do than a good one (general truth no arguing here :p ) .
The real question now: what to do? Do I switch teams and become a bad girl ? or do I pretend to be a good girl and start doing whatever it takes to get where i want to go and hide it ? OR Do I remain the same fighting to be Me and get slapped by life, society and every obstacle comes to stand in the middle of my quest-path ? Will I get tired? yes ! Will bad things still happen to me ? YES. Will I give up ? No…for now.
xoxo Marwa Me Blind Optimistic ...